The Spin of the Ball

Losing: I think I might be a loser. I feel pretty good about myself but I think the cool people think I’m a loser. Without losers, there are no cool people. So the cool people need me.

I think being a loser is the way to be. I believe it was Jesus who said, “Put yourself in a low place so people can only bring you up.”

Drinks: When I get invited out to drinks at a bar, I usually don’t go. It’s too scary for me. It’s like walking into a mysterious cave. What if there’s a bear inside?

However, I recently went to a social event. I entered the cave and faced my fears. I’m happy with my performance. I didn’t interrupt anyone. I allowed the conversation to go in unexpected directions. I asked questions.

The Story: The other day I sent an email and regretted it. It wasn’t mean or anything, just unnecessary, perhaps. But I have this new technique where I say, “Well, that’s how the story was written.” It’s done. I can’t go back and edit. I can’t write my own story called, “How I Continue to Be Perfect.” That’s a very boring story. I suspect the universe is writing a better one.

Girlfriend: If I had a girlfriend, I wouldn’t be allowed to watch so many cricket highlights. I let myself watch as many as I want, and get as many BBQ Shapes crumbs on myself as I want.

I’ve been getting very nostalgic lately, watching Rugrats, Hey Arnold, etc. The other night I cried while watching an episode of Lift Off. If I had a girlfriend, she might not allow that.

But sometimes I don’t want to watch cricket highlights. Sometimes I don’t want to be covered in crumbs. What then?

Mind Over Matter: What if matter didn’t matter? How do we know it does? Does it matter because we think it does? Or does it matter no matter what?

Inner Peace: I was talking to God the other night. He says hi. I was feeling a bit desperate and I said to Him, “God, I will give up my video games, I will give up my Skeletor figurines, I will do anything for Inner Peace,” and He said, “Can you be patient?”