The Spin of the Ball

Dear Diary,

Something strange is happening to me. I don’t like to brag but my ego seems to be shrinking. I’m pleased about this. Lately, I’ve been seeing my life as a comic strip. I can see what I’d look like if this were a story. It’s a Robert Crumb style comic and I can see when my character is acting in an unkind way. I want to act kindly and the comic helps me to turn things around.

Another change is that I’m getting better at hanging out with friends. I always thought I had to impress them. To prove my worth so I could retain them. But now I’m learning to give everyone a turn. Give more room for the other characters in the comic. That way, I have more energy and I can attend more events. Yesterday, I watched Wicked For Good with two friends. I had a great time. I enjoyed the company of my friends in the cinema. I cherished them. I realised that all I had to do was sit there and watch. Sit how I wanted to sit. Watch how I wanted to watch. Is this what being human is like?

Tomorrow, I go back to work. I’m looking forward to seeing if my new attitude towards life continues. Work sucks, they say, but maybe it will be a good comic strip.

Now it’s time to sit on my favourite chair and watch the documentary about Jim Carrey playing Andy Kaufman. I might not watch the whole thing. Lately I’ve had the idea to sit on my chair and not watch anything. I talk to myself or an imaginary friend. I use my mind to go somewhere else. A treehouse in the rain. I love hanging out in the treehouse. I get a really nice feeling when I’m there. I listen to the imaginary rain and spend time with my imaginary friend.