The Spin of the Ball

Hello and welcome to my blog. I bought a $300 office chair. An $800 laptop. I’d like to share some thoughts with you.

Quotes: There are some useful quotes out there. Some of them may ring true. Others may infuriate. Perhaps your job is to find the little bit of truth in everything.

My Love: I’ve started talking to myself. I find it useful. Sure, I could simply think my thoughts but they get a bit disorganised. If I say them out loud, things become a bit clearer. And also, if I talk to myself, I have a friend. Maybe a best friend. I have been getting along quite well with myself lately. I came up with the idea of referring to myself as “my love”. As in, “how are you today, my love?” I get a nice feeling from it.

Life is a Drug: What does life feel like? I like this question. I can’t answer it in words. I am left to simply feel how it feels. It may sound cliché to say life is a drug. And it seems many of us are pretending we’re not high.

Cinema: My favourite movie of all-time is Rocky. I first watched it as a 13 year old with my childhood friend Matthew. You may remember the Blockbuster Video days of 5 weeklies for $10. We were bored by the dialogue and skipped to the final fight. However, as an adult, I am engrossed by the entire film. Every scene is interesting. The lesson I have learned from the movie is that you don’t have to win at life. You don’t have to impress anyone. You just have to survive 15 rounds with Apollo Creed and you get the girl. I feel like I’m up to round 7. As for the girl, she could be me. The one I have been longing to find.

Rock Bottom: When you see other people hitting rock bottom, you may think, “Wow, their life is totally ruined. What a waste.” But when it’s happening to you (and it has happened to me), it’s quite liberating. No one expects anything from you anymore. Anything you do after The Incident is a pleasant surprise.

The Journey: I used to think life was against me. I used to tally up all the things it was doing to me and use it as evidence. Now I believe life is for me and it likes to test me every now and then. And I like the tests. I think life would be boring without the tests.

Dress: I watch movies where the characters sometimes criticise each others’ suits and ties. This is funny to me. I have no idea what a good suit or tie is and I wonder how anyone else knows.

I have been wearing a very dirty jacket, similar to what a homeless person might wear. The other night, a woman on Chapel St told me she had a house down the street if I needed a place to stay. I thought this was a sign to switch to my nicer jacket and the next night a woman looked at me as though she was interested. I don’t think I’d experienced that for at least 5 years. Things are looking up.